LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
latley i've been having thoughts like "i wish i knew Jesus like this person..." or "i just wish i knew HIM better" and at times feeling jealousy desiring to know Jesus better than anyone... yet still feeling far away at times (b/c sometimes i foolishly base my relationship with him on MY works) and i've been wondering many things like how can this Jesus be the same as the God of the OT... the OT God seems so angry and unpleasable, and Jesus so loving and merciful... i know they're the same but how? i know God punished all our sin and exhausted the full fury of his divine wrath on HIS SON JESUS for the sins of the world and by this sacrifice divine wrath is now forever put away for those whose name is in the BOOK OF LIFE. and i know i have this status with GOD, being COVERED BY THE BLOOD! and i know this JESUS, this beautiful Savior has paid for all MY SIN on the cross. And b/c of this mercy I CAN KNOW HIM. b/c of Jesus HE calls me "beloved daughter" and i am HIS bride! i can have access to the Father WITHOUT FEAR b/c of Jesus! I CAN COME BOLDLY pleading for mercy! I can know joy! And although i "know" these things (like i can recite them and declare them and sing them) i still am lacking understanding in all this. I know but a bit, a piece, a glance, a spark, and THERE"S SO MUCH MORE TO KNOW! and i know i don't have to try and understand HIM perfectly and never could even after being in HIS ETERNAL PRESENCE on the new heavens and new earth fully grasp all of HIM WHO ALWAYS WAS AND IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE! but we long to know him more, don't we?! What can we do but stand in reverent awe of HIM? What can we do but dance joyfully before HIM? What can we do but worship HIM face down? What can we do but come before HIM with loud expressions of thanks and praise? Thank you Holy Spirit! Ever draw me nearer!!!
After imploring HIM this week to allow me to know HIM, He replied "YOU KNOW ME! because MY SON made a way for you to know ME, there is now an open door! YOU DO KNOW ME! and you will only grow to KNOW ME MORE! Continue to seek ME and i will continue to REVEAL MYSELF to you! BE FILLED WITH JOY! JESUS has brought you ABUNDANT JOY! Walk in it! Run in it! Laugh in it! Let ME lavish it on you!....
so back to the OT/NT GOD, the other day i was asking him how? what are you like? what do you feel? what are your thoughts? one word came again and again: LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
posted by cheryl @ 9/17/2005 11:03:00 PM
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An interesting post. I relate to you a great deal in terms of feeling that there is so much more to know of God.
Regarding the NT/OT God: I disagree that there is a different picture of God (Jesus) in the NT/OT. The easy answer is the Song of Songs... Solomon is the picture of the Bridegroom and etc. But there is much more to it. Look at God's relationship to Abraham. Just passing through one day, he allows Abraham to walk with Him and question his divine plan - the humility of that act...
I could go on. I love the book of Leviticus, because it clarifies the reason/rational that Jesus' blood shed has the ability to cover my (and everyone else's) sin.
In so many ways He is the same...
those are great thoughts mike... i never thought about the abraham story like that...
i know it's my perspective that needs adjustment...I know he's the same yesterday today and forever... and i know i'm not capable of wrapping my mind around the Infinite ONE. i know and am thankful that GOD is not like me... lately i've had a subtle but false view where the FATHER is an angry Father... and i flee to Jesus. b/c i know divine wrath as been exhausted in Jesus on the cross... there's not one drop remaining for me! and i don't earn God's approval by works but by the righteousness of Christ... but i can't figure out where or why these thoughts arise? but God is helping me. my young saved life has been full an awareness of the Fater's joy and love so i don't understand where these though come from and i battle them with truth and ask God to help me... and i know he will... but i'm experiencing a lot of "knowledge" of the truth like i know it and can say it but maybe i don't truly believe it(even though i know it's true) or i'm not "feeling" it (as if feelings are to direct out lives)... "Ok Lord, i believe, help my unbelief!"
yes, there is so much more to know!! in the past couple years i feel i've begun to know Him like i have never known Him....i know what u mean about OT/NT God - it is a trick to wrap the mind around - i guess i'm still trying to get all this too! but i stand on the same truth you do, Cheryl, He is the same yesterday, today and forever!! and i hear your cry to KNOW not just sing and recite things -- i feel the same way -- Paul writes of a gospel that is "not of words but of demonstrations of power" that is what i want!!!!!!! love ya - see ya soon!
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