Prayer List #2

Same as before: Healing for Ken Burdette, Grampie Hank, Israel's eye,... Micah and Wendy's Marriage, Scott running away from Jesus, salvation for the lost!,...

But i need prayer for me too... I tend to pray for others and ignore my need to pray for God to help me and change me! My temporary ward mgr and i don't mesh well... i'm quick to point out her deficiencies and even quicker to defend myself and justify my sin. When she comes my way i want to turn and hurry away, when she talks i want to say "excuse me, do you have a sock and some duck tape?" I want to avoid her, i don't want to listen, and my solution in my mind has been asking my DNS (dir. of nursing services) to switch me to another unit even though she's supposed to be just temporary until they get someone else (like there won't be any problems on another floor).... I know she's not innocent b/c no one is, but she's not a Christian and i am! I'm Jesus on this earth to her... Lord help me! Have mercy! God is helping me to keep my big mouth shut and answer calmly. His grace is powerfully at work! I'm growing and it's obvious when i look at who i used to be! so there's reason to rejoice! but God knows the depths of my heart... he sees my thoughts and lack of love! (and as a church we're reading 1 john and Sundays message was "do you love?" ...hmmm...) So i'm crying out to Him who is able to change me! I'm so thankful for repentance! It's a gift and by this gift i can receive his forgiveness and be reconciled to God again! I don't want to walk in darkness b/c God is in the Light! I've been trying but apart from his grace i'll never progress! I want to love as Jesus loves... I'm supposed to have the mind of Christ! I'm supposed to shine His light to the lost and lead others to Him... i want to be so unlike me and so like Jesus! i feel like paul who said in romans 7 i can't do the very thing i want to do! I can't not sin! my mind is willing but my flesh is weak!---but thankfully i'm not hopeless! He's ABLE! His hand is not too short to reach down and help and change and mold me! and i can rest in the hope of heaven! But until then i'll struggle.... and i WILL see fruit b/c my Root is Jesus!